And Another Surprise

This one breaks my heart.  Apparently they picked up two heartbeats on the ultrasound, but never heard the third.  Whether or not the baby has passed on or was merely hiding…well, I don’t know.   I won’t know until the 19th.  It’s killing me a little.

It’s funny how we’ve known about the three babes for about 24 hours, but I’m already vehemently opposed to losing one.  They’re mine.  I want them.  They’re family.

But whatever happens happens.  Thanks for you love and support.  I know this seems like a terribly personal thing to write on a blog, but you’re family as well, and I want you to know.  Triplets aren’t something that you can easily hide, and I’d rather let everybody know what’s happening as it unfolds so I’m not making a zillion phone calls to fill everybody in.  I think I’d also die inside if somebody asked me three months down the line how the triplets are, and I have to explain that I’m only carrying twins.  But perhaps it won’t come to that.  I can only hope and pray. 

The next surprise had better be a darn good one, that’s all that I can say.

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10 thoughts on “And Another Surprise

  1. I feel strange commenting on such a personal post, but I wanted to send you good wishes. I read your yesterday-post with a big smile on my face and the one today with tears threatening.

    There’s nothing worse than waiting, but I hope your next surprise is the one you want it to be. Good luck.

  2. Lynsey, thank you for commenting, especially when it’s uncomfortable. It just seems easier to tell everybody via blog and Facebook rather than picking up the phone/DMing/emailing/and everything else that we do lately. 😛

    I’m very hopeful, actually. I’m going to hope until they tell me that it’s time to stop. Then I’m going to kick them in the face and hope some more. It’s my nature.

  3. How awful that you have to wait so long!! God Bless. The little one will always be yours, even if his / her existence does end up being a short one.Hoping and praying for a happy outcome!!

  4. Oh Mercedes, I hope that baby number three was just hiding. I have had many miscarriages and know the pain. Even if there are twins down the road, baby number three was yours too and will forever be in your heart. That doesn’t go away.

    Sending much love and positive energy,

    Ardee-ann

  5. You and your family are in my prayers. You have been through so much and you are such a strong, vibrant woman. I love reading your posts. You have always been positive and brave and I admire you.

  6. Oh, Mercedes, I will pray for for you and your babies! I didn’t even know you were expecting- so I’m very happy about that news. Take good care, my friend!

  7. That’s horrible that you have to wait. They did that to me when I thought everything was fine at the ultrasound and then went to the doctor and he told me my baby might have down syndrome, which she didn’t, and it would have been OK if she had, but was certainly not what I was expecting to hear. Hopefully you will hear good news next time.

  8. Just seen all your news, Mercedes, so congratulations whether it be two or three hurrahs!

    A similar thing happened with me and Ann in that originally we were told it was twins. But, it turned out that scans, particularly when carried out at an early stage and if done by inexperienced people, can result in ‘echoes’ which can seem like multiple pregnancies.

    But yes, it’s an odd feeling to be told even if it’s nothing more than an error first time around. And with us it was very matter-of-fact, with hardly a thought that, hang on, this is like a loss.

    Twins is wonderful, so concentrate on that thought, and if number three does make a reappearance, then all the better.

    Take care.

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